Necessity.

It's a terrible thing, when you need something so much it makes you go crazy;

You can't stop thinking about it.

It's always on your mind.

Always.

Everyone worries about you; they all say they care.

Do they really, or are they just putting up with you, waiting for a happier day to come, when you'll care for them again, when you'll listen to them ?

Yes.

They are.

I hate necessity.

It's a ridiculous thing.

It's like addiction, or what addicts call addiction so that they don't have to think of themselves as such a thing as an addict.

I think it's ridiculous when people say they care about you, only to ignore you; use you; pretend to love you.

I think that being judgement of how someone dresses is ridiculous.

The world is ridiculous.

Ugh.

I need to get over this complaining stage, find something interesting to do.

Adios.